I made some moves today, y’all. I ended the relationship with The Gentleman.
It was honestly the sweetest breakup I’ve ever had. We just are two strong willed, independent and stuck in our ways adults. There are some things I’m just not willing to ignore or accept and the same goes for him. We parted as friends, with a hug and even a little kiss and wished each other well.
I feel very strongly that if someone is in your life that isn’t everything you want, they are occupying the space meant for someone else that maybe is more of what you want. So it was four months of fun with The Gentleman, and I don’t regret it in the least. I crossed some important post-divorce milestones off the list and he was kind to my heart. Really, it was a good learning experience for both of us and I think we created some good memories. The simple truth is we are just too different. My heart is hard and my walls are high both from life experience and my chosen career. He is soft hearted and mighty handy and will probably make someone a great partner. That person just isn’t me.
It’s going to come off very woo-woo and Hippy Dippy but I’m an Aries and he’s a Scorpio. That is a Fire sign and a Water sign for those of you keeping score. Fire and water don’t go together. My Astrology Guru told me in the very beginning that it wasn’t going to work out and maybe that is part of what helped me drop the hammer this quickly. I just didn’t see the point of continuing if the problems I was seeing had no real end in sight. My friend says I need to find a Gemini. Hmmmm….I’ve never dated a Gemini, but my Daddy is a Gemini and I like him a lot, so maybe there’s hope and some kind of truth to this Hippy Dippy Stuff.
I’m good with the break up. I feel strong and confident in my decision and I feel capable and independent. Once I set my mind of something it’s practically a done deal, and my mind was set on The Gentleman wasn’t The One. I hope I haven’t hurt him too badly, we had a long talk today when I told him I was done. I shared where I was and he listened and I think he sees that while we had fun, I wasn’t the one for him either. It just is what it is.
So it’s back to me…Single & Selfish, Bruce the Body Pillow and my dog. My dog will be much happier that I am going to be around more and maybe I can finally give my apartment a good, deep cleaning now that I will be spending all my time here. Dating will be in my future, but for right now I’m going to take a moment to breathe, reconnect with you guys – my loyal readers – and focus on learning more about me. I can also catch up on all my Skyrim quests on the XBox too. There are dragons to kill and bandits to beat up.
Thanks for reading and thanks to everyone who checked in on me today. I felt loved and cared about. Each and every one of you make my life rich and full. I love you guys.