I was having a chat with one of my best friends recently and they were retelling what hobbies they had put down during their long marriage for one reason or another, either it was something their spouse didn't appreciate or want to do or they felt their time was better utilized with the family. There… Continue reading Finding what was once lost
I'm back to listening to Podcasts and I'm currently listening to Justin Long's Life is Short and he's interviewing Actor Jeremy Renner. I was struck by something that Jeremy Renner said about advice his father gave him as a new graduate. His father said "Now go out there and fail!" I was struck with how… Continue reading The Gift of F*cking Up
It's our Blogaversary! Two years ago, I remember where I was, thoughts circling in my brain. I was thinking about my divorce, thinking about how alone I felt. I remember suddenly realizing that I was looking at this whole being alone thing the wrong way. Perhaps I needed to think of the aloneness as being… Continue reading Happy Blogday!!
Hey you. Yeah, you. The one over there bleeding from your blood pumper chest hole where your heart used to be. Waking up daily thinking it was all just a dream only to in the very next moment have reality crash into you that the break up, the divorce, the separation, the end, really did… Continue reading There is an After
Remember when I told y'all that I'm like Rain Man with dates? It's both a blessing and a curse. Two years ago today I came home (It was a Friday) and kicked my husband out of our home. I'd found out he'd been lying about working, he'd been accused of committing a felony and he… Continue reading Two Years Ago Today….
Will my mind ever cease being an ever swirling pool of anniversaries and dates? I am like Rainman with dates and anniversaries. They bubble up in my memory and I just can't help it. Today is a perfect example. November 12th. The day before my son's birthday. The day 24 years ago that my ex… Continue reading Anniversaries & Milestones
I'm a person who gets stressed and depressed about things before they happen. I think I anticipate the way I'm going to feel on a certain milestone or date and get all my emotional processing done ahead of time. Over achiever? Yeah, pretty much. I've been a little stressed and sad this week because today… Continue reading Thoughts on my Wedding Anniversary
It's happening. I'm auctioning my wedding ring. Now before you go thinking I'm having financial difficulties, I'm fine. I mean, we can all use some extra money for things like camera equipment, birding trips, cruises, drink packages for said cruises and things like that, amiright? No, this is just because I'm ready for this last… Continue reading Worthy?
Have you ever taken a trip that was linear? Non-stop from one point to another. I don't mean your morning drive to work kind of trip, I mean a meaningful trip that has the potential to create changes and memories. A road trip across multiple states for example. They are rarely non-stop and they often… Continue reading Grief isn’t linear
You may be surprised to learn that my 20 year marriage, you know...the one that just imploded 9 months ago wasn't my first marriage. Back in 1989 I eloped just 8 days after high school graduation to Las Vegas with my then boyfriend....lets be honest, my drug dealer...and was married in a tiny chapel on… Continue reading Messages, Tests & The Plan