Vulnerability. I had an interaction with someone I care about recently that made me feel really vulnerable. It basically made me feel like my heart was outside of my body and exposed to the elements and it was oh so very unprotected. It felt as though giving a piece of my heart to this person… Continue reading Is vulnerability a dirty word?
I try really hard to not make the same mistake twice. My mom always said if I got in trouble for something I never got caught doing it again. Is this meant to say that I never did that thing again? Or that I never got caught again? Who's to know? I'd like to think… Continue reading The art of f*cking up
Greetings, hello, hiya, howyadoin? I know, it's been a month or so since I've written anything. I get the notifications from WordPress, nudging me...hey it's been a while since you've posted anything...yeah, yeah, WordPress I know. Quit being a nag, k? Life update - I'm almost 8 weeks post total hip replacement and I'm about… Continue reading Here I go again
I've written before that someday I'd like to get a tattoo that reads "Scars are like birthmarks but with better stories". Scars are funny. Some are on the outside, some are on the inside. Some scars heal and lighten on their own, and some scars are dark, rippled, puckered and pronounced forever. We often don't… Continue reading Another scar….
Today is one week post op from having total hip replacement surgery and I swear it feels more like a month from my point of view. There have been good days and bad days, a little depression, a few tears but every day gets a little bit better. I've started physical therapy and that is… Continue reading Hello Betty!
Day after tomorrow is the big day! Hazel the Hip gets her official eviction and I get a brand new hip joint and socket. Queue the ticker tape parade, ribbons, dancers and marching band. I purposely went on a dating hiatus, deactivated my dating apps, focused on myself and my body, preparing my mind for… Continue reading My Man, Johnny Walker
I wrote something this morning, kind of by accident that I thought was important. "Until you've had enough, you will continue to go back to what hurts you. I wish you enough." I was paroozing my codependent facebook groups, reading posts, commenting on some. I don't often write posts on these sites, I'm more of… Continue reading I wish you Enough
It's our Blogaversary! Two years ago, I remember where I was, thoughts circling in my brain. I was thinking about my divorce, thinking about how alone I felt. I remember suddenly realizing that I was looking at this whole being alone thing the wrong way. Perhaps I needed to think of the aloneness as being… Continue reading Happy Blogday!!
My new high is when I'm in that sweet spot. When it feels so good and I chase it again and again. I'm not talking about alcohol or any kind of illegal high, but I crave it just the same. No, I'm talking about that sweet window...just an hour or two when the ibuprofen stacked… Continue reading The New High in my life
Today would have been my 23rd wedding anniversary. You want to know what I feel about it? Absolutely nothing. Nothing, nada, zilch. Know what else? We reached over 500 followers this week! You guys! I started this blog almost two years ago and I would be happy if just a handful of people read it.… Continue reading Anniversaries & Milestones